I am finally – F.I.N.A.L.L.Y. – turning a corner. Fingers crossed and all that. By the time Saturday rolled around and my decongestant was doing essentially nothing, I cried uncle and used my handy doctor app. It’s actually not covered by my company’s new health insurance, but it’s so cheap and convenient that I used it anyway. (Not to mention healthier too, in a way. All I could think about when I contemplated dragging myself to an urgent care center was that I hope I don’t get the flu while I’m there.)
Steroids – check! Antibiotics – check! And as of today, Wednesday, five days after starting steroids and antibiotics, I think my ears have finally mostly released the pressure. I mean, they still feel kind of stuffy and pressurized, but, you know, it’s better. Ish. Mostly. I take my last dose of steroids today though so I’m hoping it will hold me. I really don’t want to visit with my allergist this week too, but I may not have another choice.
Speaking of all of this medical related business, you know how most things (medically speaking) in your life are inconsequential? You would never report back to your primary care physician that you had a cold a year ago when she was unavailable. You don’t mention to your GYN that you had a random case of hives a few months ago. Most illnesses and oddities fade into memory without a blip on the ol’ medical chart. Then there are the things that do stick around – the surgeries, the major complications, the major illnesses. I got to face my new reality this week.
I have my well woman’s visit scheduled for this Friday. (And yeah, I know I was supposed to have had it back in January, but I guess since I told them I was pregnant, my doc billed it as a prenatal appointment. Shrugs.) My office finally got on board with emailing our annual medical history questionnaires before the appointments. This makes me unreasonably happy, but I won’t bore you with those details. I’m filling out my medical history questionnaire as usual and come to the section regarding pregnancies. Last year, I was super excited to be able to mark down “1” pregnancy and “1” c-section delivery. Yesterday though, I was far less excited to update that to “2” pregnancies, “1” c-section delivery, and “1” miscarriage.
There it was, in black and white. Still just as hard to see it written out as that news was back then.
On a much lighter note, I took up a new hobby! Crocheting!
I had been idly toying with the idea of taking up a hobby like crocheting to give me something to do with my hands in the evening. I hate that thing I do, let’s see if you recognize it too. Have you ever been watching TV but been sort of, I don’t know, bored? So you pick up your phone? And the next thing you know, you’re simultaneously browsing Instagram while watching your show and you don’t really know what’s happening with your show, because you’re browsing Insta, but you don’t put your phone down? Please tell me other people do that too. Personally, I hate that. I hate when I take a step back and realize that I need a screen to entertain me while I’m literally watching a screen.
The other thing that I’m painfully aware of right now is how much the dumpling sees Luffy and I on our phones and computers. I’ll throw Luffy under the bus right now (love you honey!) and say that he’s on his computer and/or phone all the time because he pretty much is. Not that I blame him for that! It’s just that everything he enjoys doing is electronic – from games to articles to forums to learning – it’s all on the computer/tablet/phone. As are most things nowadays. Hell, even when I read the dumpling interprets me as being on a screen since I read a kindle.
Screens! They’re everywhere! Run for your lives!!
[And yes, I do crack myself up.]
Don’t get me wrong. Luffy and I don’t kid ourselves that we’ll be able to raise a screen-free child. We wouldn’t want to even if we thought we could. Screens are the future. We are only going to be inundated by more and more digital media in the coming years. But, especially for his age-range, I do like modeling an activity that isn’t screen-related. I wanted the dumpling to see me do something for fun that isn’t electronic. On the plus side for me, crocheting isn’t as enigmatic and alluring as a phone to the dumpling. He sees me crocheting and he’s like boring whereas he sees me on my phone and he wants to take over and watch videos of himself. Win win for me!
So that’s how crocheting came into my life. I started with some quick tutorials over the weekend and quickly decided on my first project. I want to make a blanket for the dumpling’s bed. We don’t really have a suitable cold-weather blanket for his crib (and what will be his toddler bed). Our blankets are either too big or too small, which is fine right now because he’s still in his zippy. But he’ll drop that eventually and when he does he’ll need a better blanket. Cue me and my new crocheting skills! In all honestly, other than the size, it’s an easy first project. I decided to use two colors – turquoise and guacamole (which sounds really weird in print but I swear looks good together) – in stripes. I had decided to do a pattern like 10 x 5 x 2.5 x 1 x 2.5 x 5 x 10 (in rows, basically meaning that each stripe is narrower than the one before until you reach the center and then they widen), which I still like. However, it occurred to me last night that I need to do some math first because I want to make sure the blanket as a whole looks good. So we’ll see. Still brushing up on that.
I’ve actually made a lot of progress since that pic, which was snapped on Saturday night. I’ve doubled the width of the blue strip and I am already finished on my first green one (the 5 row-er). So yeah! We’ll see if this becomes a long-term hobby. I mean, there are only so many blankets you can crochet, though I’ve already thought up a couple of ideas for future gifts.